The Velvet Complex

I've been thinking and talking about doing it for years.. and I'm still not sure if anyone would actually buy it, but..
what the heck.. couldn't hurt to try, right?

I now have a book of poetry out called, The Velvet Complex.
preview it, buy it, embrace it.
WARNING: not for the faint of heart.

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i have to get this out

it's been driving me nuts all day.

why is it that guys can be perverted jackasses all they want and it's funny and just not serious, but when girls act 'suggestive' or make a crude comment, either to hold their own or just because it comes out, that all of a sudden it's "omg what's wrong with you?!?"

i don't get it.
and another thing.. why do 'girlfriends' get pissed when they see a comment on their bf's picture from a girl that's perverted, but silly, but they don't mind all the other comments about the bf being 'hot', 'gorgeous', 'sexy', 'delicious', etc.??

i'm mentioning this because i was called out on commenting someone who usually is extremely perverted and i just said that it looked like his pants were glowing [it really did, i don't even know why] and i added that it was either his pants or 'something inside'... i know i probably didn't need that last part.. but i figured he'd laugh, like he usually does [gf or no gf] but NOOOO.. he freaks on me saying that he has a gf and she wouldn't 'appreciate' that.

umm... WTF? i wasn't trying to be suggestive or perverted. i was trying to make you laugh and i was making an observation. i don't care if you have a gf or not! i never said i WANTED what was in your pants, did i? no. chill out.

if someone left a comment like that on my bf's picture, i'd probably laugh. now, if it was JUST perverted and obnoxious, i'd be irritated, but i wouldn't yell at anyone for it. i'd just see the chick that wrote it as stupid and desperate. i wouldn't get offended. jeez.
maybe i'm just more laid back, idk..

i just don't see the point in making a scene over something like that. i wasn't the first, and i'm deff not going to be the last. maybe he was just irritated today.. who knows.
i'm not hurt or upset, i'm just a bit annoyed.

people get funny when they are dating.
it just happens... maybe that's why i'm single.

The Deadliest Catch

inspired by a fishing term, of all things xD

"The Deadliest Catch"

your hook
was the look you gave me
your line
was the tale you had to spin
the sinker
pushed the hook deep into me
now reel me in, reel me in, honey

*now sink your teeth in!
sink those sharp teeth in!*

your hook
was sharp and blood stained
your line
was as weak as it was thin
but your sinker
pulled apart what remained
your reeled me in, reeled me in, honey

*now sink your teeth in!
sink those sharp teeth in!*
there are things
there are things that you don't know

my hook
was the look i gave you
my line
was the rope around your neck
my sinker
pulled the hook and dragged you down
you broke my heart, son, i broke your back

you broke my heart, son, i broke your back

~*RileyVelvet

if someone could get Jack White to work with me on this song, it would be amazing.
not only could i die happy, but it would be absolutely ferocious.
:DDD

Poll! =]

just wondering..

time for the emo stuff!!
i have to say.. heartbreaks give some of the best work...
[sometimes xD]

i don't have a title for this..

i'm sorry i fell so fast and hard into this.
but i thought that's what you wanted.
apparently i was wrong.

maybe i'm just paranoid.
maybe i'm thinking too much.
maybe my past experiences are clouding my vision and my reasoning.
but this feels like the end.
and i can't tell if i'm ready or not.
i suppose some things are cursed from the beginning and doomed to fail.

but i never thought it would be us.
the signs must have been there, but i overlooked them.
maybe it was on purpose.
maybe i just stopped caring.
either way...
i'm starting to think differently.

maybe i'll never be the same again.
maybe i'm returning to who i once was.
either way...
i'm becoming someone different.

it's best if you don't say anything.
this fog will eat away at your words anyway.
maybe i'll see something in your eyes someday.
maybe there won't be anything to see.

either way...
this isn't the way i thought it would end.

o.O
it doesn't rhyme. but i don't care. i couldn't stop it from coming out.

"I Should Write A Book"

Stop! don't tell me
i know the answer to this one
you're sorry,
but the timing's just not right
you don't wanna start a fight
well, sorry, champ, it's too late
don't even try to deny it
if it's innocent, why'd you try to hide it?
you know the worst part about this game?
i always end up the one who's played
like a guitar you plucked at my heartstrings
and used drums to speed up my heartbeat
you're like a drug, alright, a narcotic that numbs
so when i wake up the next morning, it's your turn to play dumb
the poison apparently worked too well
i don't feel anything as far as i can tell
who are you again? i think we met before
oh, now i recall, you're the one who thought me a whore
it's funny you should say that since you knew all along
but it's not the first time i've been proven wrong
so go ahead, play your little game
i'll stand at the sidelines, it's your turn to be played
you thought i wouldn't make it out alive?
surpise! now i suggest you run and hide..

~RileyVelvet

-gotta love bitterness.

two more.

i was going through my stuff and found these two. they are more recent and i kinda like them. :D
what do you think?

"What Doesn't Kill You, Makes You Stranger"

thanks to you
i'm finding out who i am
but it's your fault
i can barely stand

these cuts are cleaned
but scars still remain
i count them as blessings
so i'll never forget the pain

thanks to you
i know how to say no
but it's your fault
my expectations are low

my heart may be hard
amour across my chest
but trust me, love
it's for the best

these cuts are cleaned
but scars still remain
i count them as blessings
so i'll never forget the pain

back down
i'm holding the gun now
you think you're so smooth
but this time i win, you lose

these cuts are cleaned
but scars still remain
i count them as blessings
so i'll never forget the pain

back down
i'm holding the gun now

~RileyVelvet




"Untitled"

you're being weighed down
missed the deadline, forced to run away
life is wearing you out
insecurities show this vessel's seen better days
if i so much as look at you wrong
you'll be sure my lifespan isn't very long
you slowly open your mouth
not words, but daggers fly out
they pin me to the wall
you'll be sure i never fall
show me your hands!
i pull away, they are far from clean
my life is like sand
if i'm not careful, it will slip through my hands
my potential's been hidden so long
you're so sure i'm always wrong
you slowly open your mouth
not words, but daggers fly out
they pin me to the wall
you'll be sure i never fall
if only my lungs would allow me to scream
mother! but mother!
mother, it's me

~RileyVelvet

not the first, not the last

"Small Talk Never Cut It"

*my momma said, no no no!
i ain't raising you to talk to me that way!
no no no!
no no no!
you can't talk to me that way!*

the closer i'd get
the stronger you became
i'm leavin' this town
takin' a new name

**

i know that look
you're disappointed again
i know that look
you're ashamed of what i am

you did your best, mama!
you did your best!
(x3)


"Brand New Toy"

your noose
caught the wrong side of you
and your shoes
up and ran right from you

*so what can you do?
what can you do?
what can you do?* (x2)

hollow legs
aren't meant to be bent
and broken hearts
cannot be torn apart

*so what can you do?
what can you do?
what can you do?* (x2)

force it all on me
force it all on me, boy

*so what can you do?
what can you do?
what can you do?*

force it all on me
force it all on me, boy

i'm your new favorite toy

"i've been listening to things i haven't listened to in a while.. and things i've been currently obsessed with..
the kills, band of skulls, the white stripes, the raconteurs, the talking heads, halo friendlies, the dead weather, etc...
it happens."

~RileyVelvet


i'm debating whether i want to make tons of posts with my older stuff, or if i want this to be a place for my select few that i'm actually proud of.. we'll see..
it'll be quite a bundle, either way..

i'm so sick of introductions

but, we all need them on the internet, don't we?

hi. my name is MillieRenee. i usually go by Millie, but here I'm using my stage name/alter ego/novelist id, Riley Velvet.
why?
haven't you ever used another name, or tried to come up with one? ever? no?
liar..

anyway, i have another blog [millierenee.blogspot.com] but that's all about music and my self proclaimed 'critiques' of new [and old] albums. but this one, is for my writings, lyrics, poems and anything traveling from my heart to my brain to my fingers.
i'd rather not dive into things that are TOO personal, because this is a blog and this is the internet.. and in my head, it's a stage and a platform for 'everyone' to read my works. that's assuming that anyone actually stumbles across this page.
[hey, gotta start somewhere, right?]

so that's enough of the explanations. like you care.


honestly though, that's really all you need to know.
the rest you can leave to the imagination, or if i know you personally, you can just laugh at me later.
:D