'07-08 Dump

I've been working on cleaning out a lot of crap in my room and I came across several notebooks full of old songs I wrote a few years ago. I laughed at a lot of them, because I was still kind of a beginner... and I was VERY emo. But I thought I'd share my favorites with you :D
[I don't know the dates for these... so don't ask.]

"When Forever Begins"

one day when this sunset falls
behind the mountains
I'll hear a familiar call
a voice I've never heard
but my heart will jump at the first word
its pace quickens, in excitement, or fear?
I know it'll be better when you are near
one day,
when my eyes catch a glimpse of
the only one I've ever truly loved
when our heart beats match
beating against one another
that will be our answer
we were made for each other
with strong arms
that will never let me fall
and screaming eyes
that will conquer them all
I'll stand by your side
our fingers entwined
while our hopes and dreams
light up the night sky
but what can I give you?
I need to make you see
the only thing I have to offer
is me..


"Carnival of Blood"

tell me this is just a dream
tell me the pain will cease
tell me that isn't me screaming
just don't tell me I'm not alone
"if looks could kill"
that's what always comes to mind
to most it's only a metaphor
but when we talk, it kills me inside
try to keep above the waves
your lungs burn for one more breath
I push your head down with my bare hands
but you're dragging me along into the depths
this cage isn't so bad
at least I'm being fed
your bones ache, talk of the life you might've had
at least you'll get to relax when I'm dead
just let me apologize
it's all I know how to do
I know it won't change anything, not in your eyes
but there's nothing else for me to say
I know you mean well
using my heart as your shield
but I can't help but feel you're right
and this time, you won't be able to heal
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
can you hear me? I feel so small
I've failed you again, but this time it cost me it all


"Strike Three, I'm Out"

your cold shoulder is a slap across my face
I try to return the favor, but you return unscathed
for so long we've been setting fire to this bridge
do either of us know what love truly is?
I'm so tired of the silent battle we fight
day after day, the red is clouding my sight
it's been wearing me thing, but you seem just fine
does the pain reach your heart like it penetrates mine?
before my body goes limp, there's one thing I'd like to know
but this time I want truth, straight from your soul
did you mean any of it? the looks, the lines, the warm embrace?
why do you cringe at the very thought of my face?
know what I think? I think you're afraid
you're afraid to find that you've made a big mistake
there's more to me, you failed to see before
but I've moved on, and locked the door
I've given away the key, unfortunately for you
to someone who has become the glue
to mend the pieces of my broken heart
and create a whole new work of art
it will never shatter, it's in His hands now
I've learned to trust again, somehow
I'm sorry you don't feel you need me, maybe you're right
but we both seem to be losing this pointless fight
if you disappeared, would I feel your spirit leave?
I think this all is more than what we think we believe
I think we're both scared, terrified of being right
refusing to understand the haze is suffocating the light
our vision narrows and the dark closes in
the poison mixes with the sweat oozing from our skin
if I open my mouth, would you hear the words I mutter?
should we stay as we are, backing away from each other
until all traces of those memories fade to scars we can't see?
still think I'm invincible? neither does he..


more soon....