Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Until This House Lives

"Until This House Lives"

in this empty house we once found love
but i don't think i'm what you're dreaming of
savor my presence, remember this taste
all your precious tales have all gone to waste
your scratchy fingers used to trace my spine
my shivers from top to bottom turned to trembles
but never mind them, you're still mine all mine
tape my eyes, wrap my hands cause i'm ready for it

the truth is
we live until we die
we smile until we cry
speak truth until we lie
question everything until we know why

if only i could reach inside
taste what's running through your veins
then i'd know that love exists
then i'd know i can be tamed
if only i could steal your eyes
see the things you see in me
then i'd know that i still exist
then i'd know you'll never leave

the truth is
we live until we die
we smile until we cry
speak truth until we lie
question everything until we know why

don't sever your hands, my darling!
for you won't be able to reach me when i call
but alas, your ears are burning
and all my my worlds are starting to fall

the truth is
i live until i die
i smile until i cry
speak truth until i lie
question everything until i know why


~RileyVelvet

Sunday, November 13, 2011

After Mike

"After Mike"

you found me in a sea of bodies
for some reason your eyes set on me
arms black and blue from the chasing
you just didn't know what to do with me

your eyes were round and hungry
my heart was full and ready
you began to choke
and that's when i broke

*i promise things will get better
this hurting won't last forever
i promise you'll find love again
a love that will never end*

you silenced my cries and turned away
now it doesn't even matter what i say
love like poison, no one sees
we're left with bittersweet memories

your eyes were round and hungry
my heart was full and ready
now i'm the one choking
and now you are breaking
*i promise things will get better
this hurting won't last forever
i promise you'll find love again
a love that will never end*


~RileyVelvet

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Cobwebs

"Cobwebs"
my porcelain skin is cracked and brittle, lifeless without you
my eyes have dulled and my body is now hollow
what are you without me?
are you strong enough to doubt me?

*the snow is heavy
my world froze when you went away
your touch can save me
bring your warmth, melt my sorrows away*

your absence is like cobwebs in the corners of my vacant heart
the static in your voice makes it hard to decipher where you are
what am i without you?
i'm not strong enough to doubt you

*the snow is heavy
my world froze when you went away
your touch can save me
bring your warmth, melt my sorrows away*

i miss your smile and your skin so rough and caliced
i miss the taste of ashes and the voice you sing with
i'm waiting for you, my soul is on hold
come back to me, ignore what you're told

*the snow is heavy
my world froze when you went away
your touch can save me
bring your warmth, melt my sorrows away*

i'm waiting for you
come back to me soon


~RileyVelvet

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

It feels like goodbye, but I know it's not.

"It's Cold For September"

these thoughts are poison, like black fire with no smoke
there's nothing in the air, but you still manage to choke
what's the matter with you? i thought you were strong
i used to think you were invincible, but i guess i was wrong
you knew i was always gonna leave you in my dust
but you kept reality at bay because you needed my trust

i love you.
i'll wait for you.
come back to me.

i had a moment of weakness, i'm pleading insanity
whenever my eyes would glaze, you always gave me clarity
but now you're gone and my misery is about to unload
i'm a trampled broken doll watching you drive down the road
it doesn't matter how long it takes, a day is too much
what if my heart collapses, weakened without your warm touch?

i love you.
i'll wait for you.
come back to me.

i know you should go
i know it's the right thing
but don't leave me alone
will you be a mess without me?

i love you.
i'll wait for you.
come back to me.
you love me.
please wait for me.
i'll come back for you.


~RileyVelvet

Anthony

"Anthony"

cause he knows what it means
to pluck those strings
and we'll all sing along
to our new favorite song

i'm not like the cool kids
my teeth don't seem to shine
there's no color to my eyelids
your stars shine brighter than mine

but Anthony sings all to myself
his fingers will lead him out of this hell
it doesn't matter what they tell him
he'll be gone when this world caves in

cause he knows what it means
to pluck those strings
and we'll all sing along
to our new favorite song

break through this glass
it's a wall of the past
there's transparency
and there's reality

cause he knows what it means
to pluck those strings
and we'll all sing alone
to our new favorite song


~RileyVelvet

Sunday, September 18, 2011

It Had To Happen.

"Zombie"

a dagger to the heart
and a bullet to the head
i never got very far
double tap, make sure i'm dead

shards of glass in my heart
silver bullet in my brain
my fading screen went dark
things will never be the same

i'm decaying
flesh is dropping
brain is pounding
heart is stopping
i'm starving
get inside me
i'm still empty
still consuming

drop dead!
rise up!
blown head!
time's up!

i was walking dead
you shot me in the head
face down again
eyes wide open


~RileyVelvet

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Howling

"Howling"

i did something i regret tonight
i knew i would, but i couldn't get myself to move
it hit me out of nowhere, like a punch in the gut
i swear i never meant to disappoint you

but these voices are howling
and i can't silence the screams
be quiet, be quiet

i hate that i wasn't strong enough
i hate that i let them kick me while i was down
i hate that i wasn't tough enough
i swear i will never again fall back down

but these voices are howling
and i can't silence the screams
be quiet, be quiet
just let me be

my prayers are being drowned
my whispers turn to growls
i'm screaming, screaming
voices fading, fading

but these voices are howling
and i can't silence the screams
be quiet, be quiet
just let me be


~RileyVelvet

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Psalm 91

 "Psalm 91"

my fortress, built under the shadow of wings
made of fire and light
all is mine in his sight
you'll never penetrate, your attempts mean nothing

i stand tall!
take your shot,
make me fall!
i kill serpents with my teeth
i crush lions in my hands
you are dirt under my feet
the devil's last stand

restless wicked, they don't function on sleep
they desire the night
they devour your fright
in your dreams, through your veins they constantly creep

i stand tall!
take your shot,
make me fall!
i kill serpents with my teeth
i crush lions in my hands
you are dirt under my feet
the devil's last stand

10,000 dying surround me
i'm still here, i'm still here!
10,000 fall around me
i'm right here, i'm right here!
the terror in the night
the disease at midday
i'm still in his sight
you'll be wiped away
you'll be wiped away

~RileyVelvet

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Dear Romeo

"Dear Romeo"

your manner is swift and frigid
like a raven's beating heart
with bony caliced fingers
you ripped my world apart

i can't sleep here
we're only dreaming
i'm awake here
we're always bleeding

your soul is empty; an all consuming void of black
with white teeth and glass eyes
you're ready to attack

i can't breathe here
our hearts aren't beating
i am dead here
but we're still bleeding

oh, my knight, my savior
why must you curse me?
why must you hurt me?
why must you burn me?
i deserve tomorrow
don't i deserve tomorrow?


~RileyVelvet

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Black Attic

I'm not sure if these should be two separate works, or if I should combine them to make one. Any ideas?


"Black"

what good is your heart
if it costs you your soul?
if your soul turns black
your heart's just an empty hole

what's more important
your soul or your heart?
you're bound to lose both
if you can't see in the dark

its muscles are weak
you drown in the blood
dying words you speak
they won't do any good

an eternal place
the purpose to life
one day you'll wake
to the taste of your knife


"Attic"

i held you so high
you just pushed me down
i want to know why
you never came around

like a doll in the attic
you only wanted me when bored
i was the drug, you the addict
but i'm a slave no more

our love vanished
like your marks on my throat
our love was banished
like a rock we would float

you killed my soul
i buried your heart
we lost control
your eyes went dark

dirty nails
bloody knuckles
you're blazing trails
i'm making knees buckle


Thoughts? Opinions? Critiques? Ideas?

Friday, April 8, 2011

My Reinvention

"Don't Look Back (Reinvention)"

 I'm gonna carve out my eyes
and replace them with daggers
I'm gonna cut out my tongue
and put a pistol in there
I'm setting fire to this house
and every single bridge
when it's burned to the ground
then my future begins

*it's cold inside, on the floor
I can't breathe anymore
my eyes are dry, there's the door
I won't bleed anymore
now bring me in, pour me out
you know what it's about
no more fear, no more doubt
now it's time I walk out
if you can't hold me,
you can't stop me*

I'm gonna slice every vein
and fill up with poison
I'm gonna sever every finger
one for every reason
I'm setting fire to this house
and every single bridge
when it's burned to the ground
I still won't let you in

*it's cold inside, on the floor
I can't breathe anymore
my eyes are dry, there's the door
I won't bleed anymore
now bring me in, pour me out
you know what it's about
no more fear, no more doubt
now it's time to walk out
if you can't stop me,
you can't hold me*

I won't look back
I'll never look back
I won't look back
don't ever look back
you can't stop me


~RileyVelvet

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Psychotica

"Disconnection"

I hate to have to disconnect my phone
but it's a hell of a lot better than waking up alone

it's psychotic
how hypnotic, you can be to me
it's ironic
how psychotic, I turned out to be

I hate to have to disconnect my phone
but it's a hell of a lot better than waking up alone

I hate when you insinuate
I hate the way you mediate
how much more will you take?
your sincerity is just so fake

I hate to have to disconnect my phone
but it's a hell of a lot better than waking up alone

you see what's happening?
you see how I'm missing?
you did this
on purpose

I hate to have to disconnect my phone
but it's a hell of a lot better than waking up alone

you did this
on purpose


~RileyVelvety

Monday, March 21, 2011

Too Much, Too Much

"Too Hot, Too Bright"

I never asked for you
I only knew your name
When I fell into you
I started the game

I gave up too much, too fast
You couldn't control your compulsions
Together, inside we crashed
We were too close to clear the explosion

You never wanted me
You only wanted the fame
My blind eyes didn't see
We're just pawns in a game

I gave up too much, too fast
You couldn't control your compulsions
Together, inside we crashed
We were too close to clear the explosion

Love could have been ours, you know
But the flame was too hot, too bright
We blew it out before it could grow
The roots of our hearts too fragile and light

The flame was too hot, too bright
It was all too much, too much
Muscles too weak to fight
It was all too much, too much


~RileyVelvet

Monday, March 7, 2011

This Could Be Fatal

"Fatal Reality"

if you wanted me to cry
you should have given me more
standing on your unsteady lies
that's what my honesty is for

all you did was give me more ammo
just wait until i unload
how else will anyone like you learn?
i promise, this world will burn

*baby, you're nothing new
and i've seen it all
baby, this is nothing new
and you're nothing at all*

you're a nightmare in a tuxedo
i'm the dream you tried to disguise
exposed, oh where will you go?
you're nothing without your lies

all you did was give me reason to move
just wait until i'm in love
how else will anyone like you learn?
i promise, your world will burn

*baby, you're nothing new
and i've tasted it all
baby, this is nothing new
and you're nothing at all*

scream in my ears, make them bleed
leave me in tears, until i can't see
i promise you, this world will burn
i promise you, your world will burn


~RileyVelvet

Monday, February 28, 2011

LoveSick

"Found Wanting"

you keep your words simple
and your eyes deep in mine
but even in your silence, you scream
and i get lost in you every time

even if things don't turn out okay
you make me believe they will, always
because you love me from deep in your soul
and now i never want to be alone
skin and bones are all that separate
our hearts from colliding
you'd be mine if i trusted fate
but there's no way i'm hiding
i'm exposed and in the open
i'm exposed and i'm open

i've always kept to myself
and all i ever had was time
but now time means absolutely nothing
and i forever want you as mine

even if things don't turn out okay
you make me believe they will, always
because you love me from deep in your soul
and now i never want to be alone

skin and bones are all that separate
our hearts from colliding
you'd be mine if i trusted fate
but there's no way i'm hiding
i'm exposed and in the open
i'm exposed and i'm open

if love is a fire, i've been consumed
you fill my heart, i thought there was no room


~RileyVelvet

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Light My Fire.

“Sparkler”

I’m the shadow of an angel, the heavy black before sleep
I never knew I had such long fangs
I kept my broken ribs in check, my liver shiny and clean
My smoky eyes shielded by fussy bangs

Don’t be afraid to touch me, honey
If I bite, it’s just how I show I care
Don’t be afraid to taste me, baby
If I bleed, promise you won’t stare
Just take me, just take me all in

You’re the promise inked in my lips, the grease from the machine
I never thought you’d have such soft skin
You kept your voice low, your small eyes from being seen
Your weapon of choice hidden well within

I’m not afraid to touch you, honey
If I bite, it’s just to show I care
I’m not afraid to taste you, baby
If I bleed, promise you won’t stare
Just take me, just take me all in

Who knew I’d be such a firecracker?
If you can’t take the heat, don’t play with my fire
Who knew your legs would light such a spark?
If you can’t take the heat, don’t play with this fire


~RileyVelvet

Friday, February 4, 2011

Like Taylor Swift, Much?

"You And Your Rubber Bullets"

i wanna take your world and paint it all red
and watch you choke on everything you ever said
but there's no use in it because you're already dead
so i'll just turn my back and look away instead
i'm not the rat in your cage anymore
but it's not blood running through my veins
i'm not your tiny soldier anymore
so you'd be wise to release the reins

*baby, you had me but you let me go
what you could've had, you'll never know
now you stare up at me from 50 below
you'll call out to me, but i'll answer "no."*

i wanna take your lips and stitch them up tight
and watch you burn as you're consumed in light
but it's no use because you're out of my sight
so i'll laugh to myself as you lose your own fight
i'm not your spoiled princess anymore
but i'm the queen of my own kingdom now
i'm not a fake trophy anymore
so you'd be wise to learn a new anthem now

*honey, you found me but you let me go
what you could've had, you'll never know
now your cold heart is 60 below
you'll reach for me, but i'll answer "no."*

you may have wounded me, but you'll never keep me down
you may have won the battle, but this war is mine now
you may have wounded me, but you'll never keep me down
you may have won the battle, but this war is mine now


~RileyVelvet

Sunday, January 9, 2011

'07-08 Dump pt 2

More oldies...

"Broken Bones and Pinky Promises"

a sharp pain ripples through
like a fist squeezing my insides
so this is life without you
so this is life without you

I won't ask you to come back
I know it can't be done
is wanting you here with me
really so wrong?

this is not the end
I can feel it, I can feel it
more than just a friend
you can feel it, you can feel it

spiders made my heart their home
dark, damp holes attract them
I'm growing accustomed to being alone
the bright light distracts them

flood this basement with your love
or with whatever is lying around
my love is just waiting to erupt from underground
we'll be okay, love
we'll be okay


"Chronicles"

sand paper fingers clutch my throat
I claw at them for they are so cold
flesh tears, a scream stirs blood
but it came from inside the mirror
eyes wide, what have I done?
a whisper in my ear, "trial and error"
please stay at arms length
lean in for a kiss
I crumble under the weight
it bubbles the surface, temporary bliss
fleeting means it leaves
just as fast as it came
to the edge of the trees
the shadows hide my name
leave me! the command fills my throat
I hold on tight, too afraid to let go
fist spreads, invisible flailing
I wrench, morals I am purging
tell me I'm finished
that I'm wrong and need to meet my end
I'm a wretch, say it, spit in my face
but you won't, you keep me in my place
don't..
please don't...


"Tailors Make Great Secret Keepers [but mine knew too much]"

caulk my pores so nothing can penetrate
I'm made for light, but I fear I'm too late
these lies have corrupted my mind
too broken to protect what's inside
patch the ripped seams
don't you know what this means?
pull the thread through the eye...

reinforce these walls
whisper in your still small voice
tell me I'll make it out alive
reinforce these walls
whisper in your still small voice
promise me this time I'll survive

traitor! traitor!
I'm a mutineer with venom dripping from my fangs
chain me! chain me!
hold me down and suck the poison from these veins
the end is drawing near
there is nothing left to fear

that liquid you use burns my skin
but it's used to clean the stains within
my flesh bubbles, I bight to numb the pain
now I'm clean, I'm clean again


more soon...

Saturday, January 8, 2011

'07-08 Dump

I've been working on cleaning out a lot of crap in my room and I came across several notebooks full of old songs I wrote a few years ago. I laughed at a lot of them, because I was still kind of a beginner... and I was VERY emo. But I thought I'd share my favorites with you :D
[I don't know the dates for these... so don't ask.]

"When Forever Begins"

one day when this sunset falls
behind the mountains
I'll hear a familiar call
a voice I've never heard
but my heart will jump at the first word
its pace quickens, in excitement, or fear?
I know it'll be better when you are near
one day,
when my eyes catch a glimpse of
the only one I've ever truly loved
when our heart beats match
beating against one another
that will be our answer
we were made for each other
with strong arms
that will never let me fall
and screaming eyes
that will conquer them all
I'll stand by your side
our fingers entwined
while our hopes and dreams
light up the night sky
but what can I give you?
I need to make you see
the only thing I have to offer
is me..


"Carnival of Blood"

tell me this is just a dream
tell me the pain will cease
tell me that isn't me screaming
just don't tell me I'm not alone
"if looks could kill"
that's what always comes to mind
to most it's only a metaphor
but when we talk, it kills me inside
try to keep above the waves
your lungs burn for one more breath
I push your head down with my bare hands
but you're dragging me along into the depths
this cage isn't so bad
at least I'm being fed
your bones ache, talk of the life you might've had
at least you'll get to relax when I'm dead
just let me apologize
it's all I know how to do
I know it won't change anything, not in your eyes
but there's nothing else for me to say
I know you mean well
using my heart as your shield
but I can't help but feel you're right
and this time, you won't be able to heal
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
can you hear me? I feel so small
I've failed you again, but this time it cost me it all


"Strike Three, I'm Out"

your cold shoulder is a slap across my face
I try to return the favor, but you return unscathed
for so long we've been setting fire to this bridge
do either of us know what love truly is?
I'm so tired of the silent battle we fight
day after day, the red is clouding my sight
it's been wearing me thing, but you seem just fine
does the pain reach your heart like it penetrates mine?
before my body goes limp, there's one thing I'd like to know
but this time I want truth, straight from your soul
did you mean any of it? the looks, the lines, the warm embrace?
why do you cringe at the very thought of my face?
know what I think? I think you're afraid
you're afraid to find that you've made a big mistake
there's more to me, you failed to see before
but I've moved on, and locked the door
I've given away the key, unfortunately for you
to someone who has become the glue
to mend the pieces of my broken heart
and create a whole new work of art
it will never shatter, it's in His hands now
I've learned to trust again, somehow
I'm sorry you don't feel you need me, maybe you're right
but we both seem to be losing this pointless fight
if you disappeared, would I feel your spirit leave?
I think this all is more than what we think we believe
I think we're both scared, terrified of being right
refusing to understand the haze is suffocating the light
our vision narrows and the dark closes in
the poison mixes with the sweat oozing from our skin
if I open my mouth, would you hear the words I mutter?
should we stay as we are, backing away from each other
until all traces of those memories fade to scars we can't see?
still think I'm invincible? neither does he..


more soon....

Friday, January 7, 2011

Nothing But Love Here

“Nothing But”

I rise from the ashes that make this bed
Nothing but soil here, nothing but embers
I’m a prisoner held inside my own head
Nothing here but everything I can’t remember
My only source of light a flickering candle
This forest too dense to let the sun through
The darkness inside me is more than I can handle
Nothing to lead me, no way to find you
I have no warmth, no covering for this body
And the winters are so very cold here
My small feet are swollen and muddy
The only company to comfort me is my fear
No one will find me here, its better that way
I wouldn’t want you condemned to this hell
I know my scars would frighten you away
But I know I love you more than I can tell
A strong hand reached through the thorns
And thrust me into blinding light
Claiming you found what you’ve searched for
Like waking up from a pitch black night
You kiss my eyelids and restore my vision
Nothing but warmth here, nothing but sun
Behind me only fading memories of my prison
No longer will I ever have to run
But oh how I will run right for you
To nothing but your arms spread wide for me
With all I’ve learned, only one thing is true
You are my light, the very air I breathe
Nothing but love here, nothing but love
In this moment, I know what I am is enough
Nothing but love here, nothing but love
Everything you are, my dear, is more than enough


~RileyVelvet