Sunday, December 19, 2010

Allies

"Al-Lies"

you gently kiss my charred fingers
burned from digging through the ashes
in search of what love still lingers
i'm blinded by my caked eyelashes

*your love tastes like murder
your love tastes like murder*

the muscles in my legs still sore
from fighting the tides and trenches
i finally wash up on your noble shores
your priceless ring my hand still clenches

*your love tastes like murder
your love tastes like murder*

look away from me
'cause i'm not worth a mistake
keep away from me
i'll only fade away

*your love tastes like murder
your love tastes like murder
your love tastes like murder*


~RileyVelvet

More Confessions

"Addictions of a Confessional"

you think i'm hypnotized

but i can see to your heart
you feel brave in disguise
but i will tear you apart
call me, touch me
press your lips against me
i taste bittersweet
i'm everything you need
you think i'm being honest
but i just know what to say
you like my taste the best
wait 'till i blow you away
take me in, breathe me in
push your way right on in
i taste bittersweet
i'm everything you need
i know what i have
and i know you want it
you know what i have
and you need it, need it
try me out
i know you'll come back
seek me out
but i'll never come back


~RileyVelvet

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Ravaging My Body

"Ravaged"

i feel your heart racing
almost as fast as your mind
you tremble as i begin tracing
every surface, every crevice
every piece of what is mine

you let me keep exploring
i want to end the discovering
you want me to feel your love
and i'd trade it for my freedom

maybe i'm a little insane
but you like it, like it
feel the fire in me blazing
yeah you like it, like it
explore me
destroy me
don't hold back
lay me down flat

i feel your breath wet my skin
i really want to let you in
but i won't play like that
i only know how to get trapped
taste me, break me
hear me, fear me
you know i'll never let you win
but i want to taste your skin

maybe i'm a little crazy
but you like it, like it
feel the fire in me blazing
yeah you like it, like it
explore me
destroy me
don't hold back
no don't hold back

baby can you feel me
going deeper, deeper
sink your teeth into me
sink in deeper, deeper

you'll remember my name..


~RileyVelvet


[this wasn't meant to be erotic.. but.. if it does that for you then... oh well xD]

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Firefly Confessions

"Confessions Of A Firefly"

but momma!
it's not my fault
your hand
guides my hand
and my words
are worse when
all i hear is your voice echoing in my mind
ripping through my mind
taking over my mind

turn on the faucet
and tear out my eyes
trying to forget
images burned in my mind

i'm ravaged by this hunger in me
and it's out of my control
my skin feels like it's burning
but my heart it stays so cold

but momma!
it's not my fault
your hand
guides my hand
and my words
are worse when
all i hear is your voice echoing in my mind
ripping through my mind
taking over my mind

the sirens fade behind me
as i leave this town in my dust
i don't blame you for hating me
but let me do what i must

momma don't leave me!
i can't function without you
baby, you can't leave!
i'll prove my devotion to you

one more corpse
one more body
i'll expose them, destroy them
horror in all its glory

but momma!
it's not my fault
your hand
guides my hand
and my words
are worse when
all i hear is your voice echoing in my mind
ripping through my mind
taking over my mind

i'm not evil
but i'm not healthy
i'm not dark
i just wanna be scary
get me out!
let me in!
get me out!
just give in!


~RileyVelvet

Monday, November 8, 2010

One Night With The Hunter

"One Night With The Hunter"

release your broken arrow
silver grinding flesh
you'll have treasures tomorrow
they'll be spoiled riches at best

use death to fill your canteen
so that your blood runs clean
you can't take back what you've seen
you've become just a broken dream

my fingers become electric
as i outline your body
i'm too scared to admit
you electrocute my body

this hunger is burning within me
one night with the hunter
curl up where no one will find me
just once with the hunter

he's on the hunt
you should turn back now
if i could be blunt
something's wrong somehow

my fingers become electric
as i outline your body
i will never admit it
you electrocute my body

this hunger eats away at me
one night with the hunter
curl up where he'll never find me
one time with the hunter

he's on the hunt
something's wrong somehow..


~RileyVelvet

Monday, November 1, 2010

Misc. Stuff

so, like any writer or lyricist, i've got lots of unfinished, random pieces that i've been collecting, hoping for something to inspire me or motivate me to finish them. sometimes it happens, sometimes it doesn't. sometimes i get really inspired and put a few of them together. as you can imagine, that's pretty rare. but it's happened before.
so anyway, this is my summer/fall 2010 collection.
enjoy it... or something like that.

part 01

i'm ravaged by this hunger in me
and it's out of my control
my skin feels like it's burning
yet my heart it stays so cold

-------------------------------

part 02

the siren is always looking
so keep your head down
she'll fly anything with two wings
even when you're not around
i'm not nice to look at
i'm just for them to shoot at
take it from me
you don't want what's left here
she can kiss you gently
and whisper to you softly
but take it from me
you don't want what's left here
the witch is ready for you
the gypsy dances for you
but trust me
she's empty
i promise you
she'll devour you
i can't please you
but i'll never leave you
i can't serve you
but i'll never hurt you


-------------------------

part 03

show me your guns
and let me see what you can do
it's like grabbing the sun
if you could only see what you do

you'll never find God,
you little devil,
waving your gun around
like it means something
waving your gun
like you've got something
to prove

like grabbing the sun
will you burn or brighten?


-----------------------------

part 04


and suddenly
my life is at its ending
and suddenly
my eyes are finally closing
if you're not here
than maybe
i should disappear



~RileyVelvet*

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Burn

"Burn"

i cower in the corner
fearful of your rage
my heart's slowly drowning
as tears stream down my face

but i know one day
you will be mine

you've deceived me
come back and face me
i'm moving foward either with or without you
you tried to break me
but you can't take me
i'm moving forward and it's easy without you

you think you have me cornered
force me to the floor
think if you leave me shattered
i won't fight anymore

but i'm just waiting
for your demise

you've deceived me
come back and face me
i'm moving forward either with or without you
you tried to break me
but you can't take me
i'm moving forward and it's easy without you
you've deceived me
come back and face me
you tried to break me
but you can't take me

your lies fall around me
as i watch you burn
truth illuminates me
as i watch him burn
watch him burn
i'm gonna watch him burn
i wanna watch you burn
watch you burn!


~RileyVelvet

Monday, September 13, 2010

Runway for the Ruined

"Runway For The Ruined"

she's a model
she's meant to be imitated
i'm the original
but i can't be cloned, no

so when you get the feelin'
don't fall, you're only dreamin'
i'm not the answer
i'm just looking for a place to stay

he's a reject
he's meant to be rejected
he's an original
and he can't be avoided

so when you get the feelin'
don't fall, you're only dreamin'
i'm not the problem
i'm just looking for another way
so when you get the feelin'
don't fall, you're only dreamin'
i'm not the answer
i'm just looking for a place to stay

why?
this is suicide!
why?
this is suicide!
i'm not the answer
i'm just looking for another way


~RileyVelvet

Sunday, September 5, 2010

"Moving Closer"

"Moving Closer"

ooh baby, you think you're so slick
but you can't find a single word to make it stick
your crooked little smile might just do the trick
but the slime on top your eyes is way too thick

and i'm telling you
you're just a breath away
'cause i'm claiming you
you're just a step away

ooh darling, your eyes look so kind
but the smoke around them hides the void behind
tell me you have what i've yet to find
but you forget that i'm not who's walking blind

i'm telling you
you're just a breath away
i'm claiming you
you're just a step away
and i'm telling you
you're just a breath away
'cause i'm claiming you
you're just a step away

don't save me
you can't save me
don't save me
you can't save me
don't save me
you can't save me

i'm telling you
you're just a breath away
and i'm claiming you
you're just a step away
cause i'm telling you
you're just a step away
i'm claiming you
you're only a breath away


~RileyVelvet

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Flaws

"Flaws"

you could call me bad
you could call me mean
you could call me scared
but don't ever take me there

you could call me strange
you could call me out
you could call me i swear
just don't ever take me there

you could call me strange
you could call me scared
but don't ever take me there
you could call me bad
you could call me out
just don't ask what it's about

i'm not your enemy
but i just can't be beat
if you like it hot, well then i'll try
but i just can't be beat
can't be beat

you could call me strange
you could call me scared
but don't ever take me there
you could call me bad
you could call me out
just don't ask what it's about


~RileyVelvet

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

The Only Thing I Initiate is a Fight

"The Only Thing I Initiate is a Fight"

i like what i like
i won't like everything
i won't like what you like
you don't like anything
bag 'em and tag 'em
that's what i was taught
but don't ever let them
know they are caught
i'm a girl
i only initiate fights
when my fingers curl
i have one thing in my sights
i said what i said
and i'll say just about everything
i won't say what you said
you never said anything
spot 'em and flag 'em
that's what i was told
but i never really liked them
i'd rather stay out in the cold
i'm a girl
i only initiate fights
and nothing in the world
will ever make this right
you can tell me what to do
i'll just pretend to listen
i was taught to speak the truth
so never ever tell me when
i'm a girl
that's it, that's all
i'm only a girl
i'm only a girl


~RileyVelvet

Sunday, July 18, 2010

"Beat It To Sleep"

"Beat It To Sleep"

my flesh stained with ink
this artwork, my mark left in blood
when there are no words to speak
silence sends one last message for good
i trained you
beat me to sleep
leave the collar on
beat me to sleep
treat me with respect, woman!
or i'll lay you down to rest
this flat pillow i sleep on
will only put me to the test
i felt you wince
beat me to sleep
toss prejudice out
beat me to sleep
my clothes stained in blood
your skin, my mark etched in deep
when pleading eyes close for good
no one remembers the images they've seen
you've left me
beat it to sleep
keep the lights on
beat it to sleep
beat me to sleep
beat it to sleep
beat yourself to sleep


~RileyVelvet

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

A Mile A Minute

HEY! This one has music to it! Listen!
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"A Mile A Minute"


i'll need some help
to cover up this bloody empty hand
i came up short
when i found your teeth in the sand

never give a little
give a little lie
if you can't save a little
save a little time

dreams escape
in a scar filled sky
this is how it ends
when blood runs dry

i'm gonna need help
covering up this empty coffin
i've become a tomb
containing the undead within

never give a little
give a little lie
if you can't lose a little
lose a little life

dreams escape
in a scar filled sky
this is how it ends
when blood runs dry
dreams escape
in a scar filled sky
this is how it ends
when blood runs dry


~RileyVelvet

Sunday, June 27, 2010

My Oblivion

"My Oblivion"

i looked up to you
but you only looked down
no one could do the things you would do
but you only ever sought oblivion
i can't say when
and i can't say how
but something big is coming
that we can't keep down
baby girl, stop crying
but daddy won't be coming home
don't ever forget his love for you
sickness and a gun left him all alone
i can't say when
and i can't say how
but something big is coming
and our time is now
stand and survive
one more day
we can survive
one last day
just one last day
we can survive
just one last day
so build your bridges strong


~RileyVelvet

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

"Cool Your Jets"

"Cool Your Jets"

my dreams are everything i didn't get to say
your dreams only seem to get in your way
maybe if i could convince my dreams to stay
i wouldn't take it so hard

cool your jets, now
cause baby, you're golden
take my hand and we'll get out
we'll chase our dreams together

my face won't ever paint me a sign
your lungs just don't agree with your rhymes
maybe if i could just forget to try
i could play the part

just simmer down, now
cause baby, you're golden
lead the way and we'll get out
we'll chase our dreams together

your arms are black and blue
mine have a bit of red too
maybe if i gave my knife to you
i wouldn't fall apart
i wouldn't fall apart

break my fall, now
cause baby, you're golden
if i let go, i'll never get out
we'll throw out our dreams together


~RileyVelvet

Monday, June 21, 2010

Storm's A-Comin'

kind of a new revision of parts of "The Light Show" xD
[i don't know why some of the text is super small.. i can't seem to fix it..]

"Storm's A-Comin'"

take off your gloves!
this ain't no holy ground
they will never know
there ain't no one around!

apologies don't make amends
when you're struck by lightening

these plagues don't touch you
they all fall
they all fall

i serve no one!
but the mighty Lord above
if you're too young
things are about to get rough!

troubles are just around the bend
when you're struck by lightening

the wicked fall all around you
they all fall
they all fall
strike me down
strike me down
strike me down

apologies don't make amends
when you're struck by lightening
your dignity drops to the floor
when you're struck by lightening
troubles are just around the bend
when you're struck by lightening
when you're struck by lightening


~RileyVelvet

Sunday, June 6, 2010

The Light Show

"The Light Show"

apologies don't make amends
when you're struck by lightening
when you're struck by lightening

when you know his ways, when you see the lights,
when you hear the roar, when you stand to fight
you won't find me there

your dignity drips to the floor
when you're struck by lightening

if you know his ways, if you see the lights
if you hear the roar, if you stand to fight
you won't find me there
don't you know his ways?
[when you're struck by lightening]
don't you see the lights?
[when you're struck by lightening]
don't you hear the roar?
[when you're struck by lightening]
now stand and fight!
now stand and fight!
now stand and fight!

you won't find me there..


~RileyVelvet

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Sunday, May 16, 2010

In The Night

"In The Night"

i'm the terror in the night
bleed through the cracks in your shoes
i'm the terror in the night
i'll shake the Hell out of you

2,000 ways to say no
but 300 ways to stand straight
i'm not the people you know
we're gonna go my way

there's too many
too many soldiers to fight
you need to narrow it down
keep it low, down out of sight
not now!
not now! [x4]

i'm the terror in the night
bleeding 'cause none of it is true
i'm the terror in the night
i'll take my fear out on you

2,000 ways to say no
but 300 ways to stand straight
i'm not the people you know
we're gonna go my way

there's too many
too many soldiers to fight
you need to narrow it down
keep it low, down out of sight
not now!
not now! [x4]

i'm the terror in the night
i bleed 'cause all of it's true
i'm the terror in the night
i'm falling right into you


~RileyVelvet

Monday, May 10, 2010

Not Another Song About California

"Not Another Song About California"

well i've been in in California for about a year
and i'm trying to figure out what i'm doing here
every single person that i happen to meet
doesn't ever seem to feel complete
they're all so flawless
makes me feel so hopeless

*get me out of
California
i'm feeling restless
and i can't take it
there is something
out there for me
i've gotta find it
and i think you got it*


well it's taken several days, but i've figured it out
i'm beginning to see what it's all about
everybody's chasing what they could do without
i was running 'till i tripped and now i just want out!
i'll miss the sunsets
but they're hard to forget

*get me out of
California
i'm feeling restless
and i can't take it
there is something
out there for me
i've gotta find it
and i think you got it*

i just want to go back home
at least i wouldn't feel so alone
i'm sure i'll be back in a year or two
but i gotta come home 'cause i'm missing you


~RileyVelvet

Sunday, May 9, 2010

From Something To Nothing

"From Something To Nothing"

she wears high heels
but lives a low life
choking on her spoon
and believing every lie
daddy worked the banks
and momma worked the streets
a childhood full of hate
but she always had food to eat
you can't have something for nothing
daddy always used to say
but she traded her soul
so she could go out and play
momma gave her the world
but she never had the time
such a pretty little girl
she never even had to try
she lost herself
under a mountain of diamonds
she found herself
in the mirror she fell on
she wears high heels
but lives a low life
choking on her spoon
and believing every lie


~RileyVelvet

Friday, May 7, 2010

Life is a Desert

"Life is a Desert"

Life is a desert. You get to a point when all you can do is keep walking. And even though you know the lakes and rivers in the distance are just mirages, you can only hope that one day, if you walk far enough, one of them will finally be real.

Life is like a desert. Where there's heat, there is always a dark storm looming over head. And even though you long for the rain to quench your thirst, you know that each time it storms, it becomes harder and harder to survive.

Life is a desert. It's hot and dry in the day and cold and dry at night. And even though the night feels close to death, the rising sun of the next day reminds you that death is not the end. In fact, it's just the beginning.


~RileyVelvet


[you'll be seeing/hearing these in the future, either in a book or a movie. they are original works of mine, and have already inspired a t-shirt: http://178431.spreadshirt.com/ :D]

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

In The Afterlife

"In The Afterlife"

if i died today
i'd come back as a river
i'd flood the city you sleep in
a flood that lasts forever

if i see you tomorrow
i'd like to spit in your face
i'd stain your shirt with blood
but never leave a trace

*i don't believe
i don't believe
i don't believe
in the afterlife*

if i died today
i'd come back as a cloud
i'd hover over your head
and then i'd strike you down

*i don't believe
i don't believe
i don't believe
in the afterlife*

if you see me tomorrow
don't come walking my way
i might become a tornado
and you'd be swept away

i might become a tornado
and then you'd be swept away


~RileyVelvet

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

The Truth About Forgiveness

"The Truth About Forgiveness"

fools play a number
games they hate to lose
He never did what He told her
she still waited for proof
but she couldn't feel him anymore
curled up on the bathroom floor
and the sound of stale music
made her ears feel sore
the dim lights offered no comfort
the walls felt colder than they were before
if time's a reel, it's not working
she's tired of bleeding and choking
he left her chained to the ceiling
had nothing to do with believing
but she couldn't feel him anymore
curled up on the bedroom floor
and the sound of his footsteps
made her head feel sore
light from the sun turned her elbows red
but she just welcomed the change
he never claimed to forgive and forget
he just remains the same
he just remains the same
he just remains the same
he just remains the same


~RileyVelvet

Monday, May 3, 2010

The Step Father

"The Step Father"

these dreams of mine
threaten your empire
if you can't sleep, no one sleeps
these beasts live in your eyes
the fourth beast is your kingdom
horns with eyes, waging war
you'll never know of everlasting freedom
that's what your bronze claws are for
these lions were created in power
with wings like eagle's to soar
on two legs, making you man
it's all part of a greater plan
for heads, four wings
and eyes born aflame
iron teeth to crush kings
this beast has many names
unspeakable are these atrocities
but wide are his arms
your armada hides in the city
i stand where your hands are
immigrants flee, the sun is beating down
do they know their fear fabricates his crown?
i'm lost at sea, i hear no sound
drowning along with the spray all around

give me wings and i'll take flight
give me ground and i'll stand and fight
take back the dark and i'll give you light
take back my heart and i'll be in your sights


~RileyVelvet

Monday, April 26, 2010

I'm Like a Bird

"I'm Like a Bird"

i'm like a bird
except my feathers have fur
if you want me,
you gotta chase me
i said if you want me,
you gotta chase me

*Godspeed
best wishes to you
Godspeed
i've already turned blue*

take your sling and grab your pipe
cause you know you're gonna be up all night
if you want me, come and get me
i'm not waiting around just to see you try

Godspeed
i've got my eyes on you
Godspeed
show me what you do

Godspeed
best wishes to you
Godspeed

just do what you do
just do what you do
you want me? come and get me
and just do what you do

Godspeed
best wishes to you
Godspeed
just do what you do



~RileyVelvet

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

The Fruitless Vine Will Be Cut

"The Fruitless Vine Will Be Cut"

woke up, found your lighter on the swing
shook it, but only found it empty
come on, you could have left me some at least
left to wonder, what this day will bring

your spells have me thrown off kilter
but i've learned it's only a matter of time
you'll break, the sun exposes lies
the heat will make your beauty wither

*it's not the same
some things just don't change
you're not the same
but some things never change*

i warned her, don't touch the thorn!
but her insides called your name
one scream, her body consumed in flames
now she'll speak of your valor no more

*it's not the same
some things just don't change
you're not the same
but some things never change*

it's the seventh wonder
it's a fruitless lover
that makes you slip out the back door
i just can't hear this no more

*it's not the same
some things just don't change
you're not the same
but some things never change*

this trigger's spent
pleasure came and went


~RileyVelvet

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Distelfink, Pheasant

"Distelfink, Pheasant"

she grips her leather jacket tight
honey, can't you keep warm tonight?
her face looks buffeted by the wind
better clean up, or i can't let you in

your dead on track, set to fight
it's too dark, honey, stand near the light
life ain't that hard, it's just broken
and my face isn't stern, it's just frozen

*see my fingers bleed?
i'm fine, my hands are clean
see what you don't see?
i'm fine, my hands are clean*

trace the stitches right to my heart
admire your work, i'm a new piece of art
you raise your axe up one last time
lie still, honey, i'll erase your mind

*see my fingers bleed?
i'm fine, my hands are clean
see what i don't see?
i'm fine, your hands are clean*

good night, my dear
good night, shine bright
good night, my dear
good night


~RileyVelvet

Friday, April 9, 2010

Light Casts a Shadow

"Light Casts a Shadow"

your hands in your pockets
and lead in your shoes
time is a wasting
it's just up and run away from you
it was taken, stolen
you just wanna make a mess
but remember, you need to remember
remember to never forget..

you're my black shadow, baby!
you never saw it comin'
my glowing silhouette, baby!
and you never saw it comin'

strings through your wrists
and paint on your face
you're my favorite puppet
i can keep up this pace
you make me shiver
but it never ever lasts
you can't predict the weather
like me, it blows in too fast

so remember, remember
you can't outrun the facts

you're my black shadow, baby!
you never saw it comin'
say you love me, maybe!
i'll never see it comin'

so spin your tales!
i've got plenty of yarn

you're my black shadow, baby!
you're my glowing silhouette, baby!
you never saw it comin'
come on, say you love me, maybe!
i'll never see it comin'

so spin your tales!
i've got plenty of yarn


~RileyVelvet

Monday, March 29, 2010

The Velvet Complex

I've been thinking and talking about doing it for years.. and I'm still not sure if anyone would actually buy it, but..
what the heck.. couldn't hurt to try, right?

I now have a book of poetry out called, The Velvet Complex.
preview it, buy it, embrace it.
WARNING: not for the faint of heart.


Make books online at Bookemon

Sunday, March 21, 2010

i have to get this out

it's been driving me nuts all day.

why is it that guys can be perverted jackasses all they want and it's funny and just not serious, but when girls act 'suggestive' or make a crude comment, either to hold their own or just because it comes out, that all of a sudden it's "omg what's wrong with you?!?"

i don't get it.
and another thing.. why do 'girlfriends' get pissed when they see a comment on their bf's picture from a girl that's perverted, but silly, but they don't mind all the other comments about the bf being 'hot', 'gorgeous', 'sexy', 'delicious', etc.??

i'm mentioning this because i was called out on commenting someone who usually is extremely perverted and i just said that it looked like his pants were glowing [it really did, i don't even know why] and i added that it was either his pants or 'something inside'... i know i probably didn't need that last part.. but i figured he'd laugh, like he usually does [gf or no gf] but NOOOO.. he freaks on me saying that he has a gf and she wouldn't 'appreciate' that.

umm... WTF? i wasn't trying to be suggestive or perverted. i was trying to make you laugh and i was making an observation. i don't care if you have a gf or not! i never said i WANTED what was in your pants, did i? no. chill out.

if someone left a comment like that on my bf's picture, i'd probably laugh. now, if it was JUST perverted and obnoxious, i'd be irritated, but i wouldn't yell at anyone for it. i'd just see the chick that wrote it as stupid and desperate. i wouldn't get offended. jeez.
maybe i'm just more laid back, idk..

i just don't see the point in making a scene over something like that. i wasn't the first, and i'm deff not going to be the last. maybe he was just irritated today.. who knows.
i'm not hurt or upset, i'm just a bit annoyed.

people get funny when they are dating.
it just happens... maybe that's why i'm single.

The Deadliest Catch

inspired by a fishing term, of all things xD

"The Deadliest Catch"

your hook
was the look you gave me
your line
was the tale you had to spin
the sinker
pushed the hook deep into me
now reel me in, reel me in, honey

*now sink your teeth in!
sink those sharp teeth in!*

your hook
was sharp and blood stained
your line
was as weak as it was thin
but your sinker
pulled apart what remained
your reeled me in, reeled me in, honey

*now sink your teeth in!
sink those sharp teeth in!*
there are things
there are things that you don't know

my hook
was the look i gave you
my line
was the rope around your neck
my sinker
pulled the hook and dragged you down
you broke my heart, son, i broke your back

you broke my heart, son, i broke your back


~*RileyVelvet

if someone could get Jack White to work with me on this song, it would be amazing.
not only could i die happy, but it would be absolutely ferocious.
:DDD

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Poll! =]









just wondering..
time for the emo stuff!!
i have to say.. heartbreaks give some of the best work...
[sometimes xD]

i don't have a title for this..

i'm sorry i fell so fast and hard into this.
but i thought that's what you wanted.
apparently i was wrong.

maybe i'm just paranoid.
maybe i'm thinking too much.
maybe my past experiences are clouding my vision and my reasoning.
but this feels like the end.
and i can't tell if i'm ready or not.
i suppose some things are cursed from the beginning and doomed to fail.

but i never thought it would be us.
the signs must have been there, but i overlooked them.
maybe it was on purpose.
maybe i just stopped caring.
either way...
i'm starting to think differently.

maybe i'll never be the same again.
maybe i'm returning to who i once was.
either way...
i'm becoming someone different.

it's best if you don't say anything.
this fog will eat away at your words anyway.
maybe i'll see something in your eyes someday.
maybe there won't be anything to see.

either way...
this isn't the way i thought it would end.

o.O
it doesn't rhyme. but i don't care. i couldn't stop it from coming out.



"I Should Write A Book"

Stop! don't tell me
i know the answer to this one
you're sorry,
but the timing's just not right
you don't wanna start a fight
well, sorry, champ, it's too late
don't even try to deny it
if it's innocent, why'd you try to hide it?
you know the worst part about this game?
i always end up the one who's played
like a guitar you plucked at my heartstrings
and used drums to speed up my heartbeat
you're like a drug, alright, a narcotic that numbs
so when i wake up the next morning, it's your turn to play dumb
the poison apparently worked too well
i don't feel anything as far as i can tell
who are you again? i think we met before
oh, now i recall, you're the one who thought me a whore
it's funny you should say that since you knew all along
but it's not the first time i've been proven wrong
so go ahead, play your little game
i'll stand at the sidelines, it's your turn to be played
you thought i wouldn't make it out alive?
surpise! now i suggest you run and hide..

~RileyVelvet



-gotta love bitterness.

two more.

i was going through my stuff and found these two. they are more recent and i kinda like them. :D
what do you think?

"What Doesn't Kill You, Makes You Stranger"

thanks to you
i'm finding out who i am
but it's your fault
i can barely stand

these cuts are cleaned
but scars still remain
i count them as blessings
so i'll never forget the pain

thanks to you
i know how to say no
but it's your fault
my expectations are low

my heart may be hard
amour across my chest
but trust me, love
it's for the best

these cuts are cleaned
but scars still remain
i count them as blessings
so i'll never forget the pain

back down
i'm holding the gun now
you think you're so smooth
but this time i win, you lose

these cuts are cleaned
but scars still remain
i count them as blessings
so i'll never forget the pain

back down
i'm holding the gun now

~RileyVelvet




"Untitled"

you're being weighed down
missed the deadline, forced to run away
life is wearing you out
insecurities show this vessel's seen better days
if i so much as look at you wrong
you'll be sure my lifespan isn't very long
you slowly open your mouth
not words, but daggers fly out
they pin me to the wall
you'll be sure i never fall
show me your hands!
i pull away, they are far from clean
my life is like sand
if i'm not careful, it will slip through my hands
my potential's been hidden so long
you're so sure i'm always wrong
you slowly open your mouth
not words, but daggers fly out
they pin me to the wall
you'll be sure i never fall
if only my lungs would allow me to scream
mother! but mother!
mother, it's me

~RileyVelvet

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

not the first, not the last



"Small Talk Never Cut It"


*my momma said, no no no!
i ain't raising you to talk to me that way!
no no no!
no no no!
you can't talk to me that way!*

the closer i'd get
the stronger you became
i'm leavin' this town
takin' a new name

**

i know that look
you're disappointed again
i know that look
you're ashamed of what i am

you did your best, mama!
you did your best!
(x3)



"Brand New Toy"

your noose
caught the wrong side of you
and your shoes
up and ran right from you

*so what can you do?
what can you do?
what can you do?* (x2)

hollow legs
aren't meant to be bent
and broken hearts
cannot be torn apart

*so what can you do?
what can you do?
what can you do?* (x2)

force it all on me
force it all on me, boy

*so what can you do?
what can you do?
what can you do?*

force it all on me
force it all on me, boy


i'm your new favorite toy

"i've been listening to things i haven't listened to in a while.. and things i've been currently obsessed with..
the kills, band of skulls, the white stripes, the raconteurs, the talking heads, halo friendlies, the dead weather, etc...
it happens."


~RileyVelvet


i'm debating whether i want to make tons of posts with my older stuff, or if i want this to be a place for my select few that i'm actually proud of.. we'll see..
it'll be quite a bundle, either way..

i'm so sick of introductions

but, we all need them on the internet, don't we?

hi. my name is MillieRenee. i usually go by Millie, but here I'm using my stage name/alter ego/novelist id, Riley Velvet.
why?
haven't you ever used another name, or tried to come up with one? ever? no?
liar..

anyway, i have another blog [millierenee.blogspot.com] but that's all about music and my self proclaimed 'critiques' of new [and old] albums. but this one, is for my writings, lyrics, poems and anything traveling from my heart to my brain to my fingers.
i'd rather not dive into things that are TOO personal, because this is a blog and this is the internet.. and in my head, it's a stage and a platform for 'everyone' to read my works. that's assuming that anyone actually stumbles across this page.
[hey, gotta start somewhere, right?]

so that's enough of the explanations. like you care.


honestly though, that's really all you need to know.
the rest you can leave to the imagination, or if i know you personally, you can just laugh at me later.
:D